So I got board with every thing and decided that I needed a change of pace. So now I'm hauling campers out of IN to the dealerships. Its not very exciting but its a job and I’m driving. Its a good time to just clear my head I guess. Its a 4 day trip most times and it pays the bills. It seems to give me time to think about every thing that has happened in the last few years. First off we lost my grandmother who was a big part of my life growing up as a child. The not to long after my dad died from a motorcycle accident. I did not have time to deal with any of it and now I just feel like the world has gone to hell. I’m guessing because I miss them both dearly. I hate that my mother is going through what she is also it has been a rough road for her and this family. So I guess ill be doing this for a wile and maybe ill get a better out look on life but for now it will sacrifice. Just going to pay bills and try to fine my place in the world.